I feel like I’m mediocre at a lot of things. Inside, I feel there is a wall where all my skills are trying to push against.
I’ve gotten so far in Spanish, French, Keyboard, Trumpet, Singing, Exercising, Worship Leading, etc…
But what is next?
Maybe I need to commit them all to God and let Him have His way in them. I just feel a wall. I know I’m not working hard enough on all of them. But I do work on them. Believe me, I do.
I wonder if it’s that I’m trying to find purpose in them rather than in God. I don’t know what to think or how to approach this situation.
But I know that all these expressions are branches coming from the same tree–the tree that God made.
The tree that is me.
And I suppose in order to grow these branches I must first continue to grow in the One whom I’m rooted in. I think I’ve lost my passion.
I really just don’t know the answer.
I’m stuck by what I see, when I should be free in the unseen.